Letting go is not easy, but allowing baggage to drag you down is not easy either. It’s tiring to live each day with your fears, anger and worries. How do you let go?
For me, the first step I took was to let go of my fear.
I wanted to taste life, but how could I when I gave fear permission to weigh me down? What was I afraid of? One of my biggest fears was forgetting my late husband. If I moved on and enjoyed life again, would I forget our love for each other? I feared being a traitor to our marriage.
Secondly, I needed to release my anger.
Before resolving my fears I needed to let go of my anger. I was mad at both God and my late husband. Why did Jerry die? Why did God let him die? I know, totally irrational thinking at the time. It wasn’t Jerry’s fault he died, nor was it God’s for allowing his death. We are all going to die someday.
Step three was liberating myself from worry.
Not only did I worry about the house payments, finances, and my children, I was consumed with what everyone else thought. Once I realized I needed to find my own path to peace and happiness, I slowly released my worries.
What did I learn from letting go of my fears, anger and worries?
My first marriage of thirty-three years will never be forgotten. Our hearts are able to hold the love and memories we’ve had in our lives. My irrational anger at God and my late husband drained my energy. Getting rid of that anger helped me accept death, both Jerry’s and my own some day. My worries are difficult to release. I still worry about some things, but I’ve let go of worrying about what others think. We all must find our own peace and happiness in life.
Letting go is one of life’s constant challenges.
